Creativity + Productivity Updates, journalling, updates

Life Update

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZQzrqc9Uk8&ab_channel=HomeworkRadio What's new: I'm seeing someone, kindaI'm tired almost all the time (see below)I most likely have coeliac diseaseI'm about halfway through finishing my debut EP and first project as philomenahI broke up with my therapistI'm considering switching anti-depressants About the guy I'm seeing: he's not perfect. But he is lovely. Some things about him… Continue reading Life Update

dating, depression, Thinkpiece

Dating With Depression?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTDHobyS_DQ&ab_channel=HomeworkRadio Today I want to discuss the idea that you should wait until you're in a "good place" before you enter into relationship with someone else, and the degree to which this is an ableist perspective in the context of mental illness. https://i.pinimg.com/originals/d6/13/2b/d6132b67bed66308b8b5d40206996799.gif I'm fairly happy being single at the moment. I feel as if… Continue reading Dating With Depression?

Anti Depressants, depression, journalling

First Week On Sertraline

I've written fairly extensively about my qualms about anti-depressive treatment. I won't go into depth now but I've written about it here and here. Not so long ago, I was feeling particularly resistant about taking them; maybe partly because my depressive illness had gotten so bad that I knew I might have to. But for… Continue reading First Week On Sertraline

counselling, depression, journalling, Self Acceptance, spirituality, Thoughts On...

The Problem With “Getting Better”…

...is that it implies there is something "wrong" with you in the first place. I've had a shift in perspective recently when it comes to self help, mental illness and shadow work. It's not something that always made sense to me, that truly bringing about positive change starts with radical acceptance of where we are… Continue reading The Problem With “Getting Better”…

counselling, Thoughts On...

Thoughts On…The First Week Without Therapy

I was going to publish a post today that I wrote earlier about the concept of "getting better" and how that can be problematic in itself; but it doesn't feel true to how I feel right now. I don't feel like I have any supposed "truth bombs" I can drop and feel self-satisfied about right… Continue reading Thoughts On…The First Week Without Therapy

counselling, Uncategorized

A Dreamless Codeine Sleep

I watched a brilliant film last night called "Call Me By Your Name" about a seventeen-year-old boy and a man in his twenties who fall in love over the course of a summer. It's one of the most beautiful love stories I've ever seen. It captures the headiness, the intoxication, the tenderness, the pain, the… Continue reading A Dreamless Codeine Sleep

counselling, journalling

I Wanted To Share With You

I wanted to share with you. I had a list, in fact, of topics and prompts which would set this room aglow with pure connection. We would talk about boundaries and how well I'm setting and maintaining them, we'd talk about anger and grief and how well I'm navigating and managing them, we'd talk about… Continue reading I Wanted To Share With You

Thoughts On...

“Why Are You Single?”: The Bizarre Idealisation of Relationships

Being in a relationship is something of a security blanket for many people. Like an "at least I'm not alone" sort of thing. The presence of a significant other can absolutely add value to our lives and provide a form of support through adversity; but it's simply irrational to regard anyone in a relationship as… Continue reading “Why Are You Single?”: The Bizarre Idealisation of Relationships

counselling, Thoughts On...

On Feeling Unwanted

So this has been the main complex rearing its head for me over the past few weeks. Something happens, I experience emotional overwhelm and when I drill right down into it - I feel unwanted. Disposed of. Refused. Rejected. It doesn't matter if it's to do with the timeframe in which someone has or hasn't… Continue reading On Feeling Unwanted