I'm genuinely surprised it's been over a year since I last wrote a post! So naturally I don't know where to start. I suppose it'll be a life update. Since I last posted (June 2021), I became homeless. I still am, technically, but after 9 months in a council hostel I'm finally in a 1… Continue reading (Another) Life Update
Tag: emotions
10 Things I’ve Learned About Dating at 25: Part 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QU_1o5j2PhU https://64.media.tumblr.com/faa83adcd8e0a334cc8f7eacacdb2d65/tumblr_pd80b1Dpqr1xv3l02o1_640.gif 1. Some men prefer to communicate through silence Here I'm referring specifically to the phenomenon of being "left on read". I read somewhere recently that "silence is also an answer". Maybe they lost their phone, maybe they didn't see the notification, maybe they "don't use this app very much" - and maybe for… Continue reading 10 Things I’ve Learned About Dating at 25: Part 1
Thoughts On…The First Week Without Therapy
I was going to publish a post today that I wrote earlier about the concept of "getting better" and how that can be problematic in itself; but it doesn't feel true to how I feel right now. I don't feel like I have any supposed "truth bombs" I can drop and feel self-satisfied about right… Continue reading Thoughts On…The First Week Without Therapy
Counselling, Validation + Childhood Fantasy
I don't really know what to write about today specifically, so I suppose I'll just write about how I feel and what's on my mind. After last week's outburst post, I knew that my next counselling session would feel different. I told him today that it felt like a month since our last session. He… Continue reading Counselling, Validation + Childhood Fantasy
Bliss, Despair, Terror – Meditation + The Importance Of The Spiritual Community
I mentioned to a colleague at work the other day about going to a Buddhist class one night and she said that she didn't think she'd have it in her to meditate and "sit there with no thoughts". I rushed to say to her what I say to anyone who has similar apprehensions about meditative… Continue reading Bliss, Despair, Terror – Meditation + The Importance Of The Spiritual Community
A New Normal
My last post saw me getting transparent about my addictive tendencies and how meditation and Buddhism had provided the space and support to allow that transparency to blossom. So now I'm not on retreat anymore and I don't have a 7.00am rising bell to gently coax me out of bed, or a beautiful shrine room perfumed… Continue reading A New Normal
Exaltation + Indifference: Both Are Okay
On Saturday evening, I finished work after a fairly busy day (it's always busier towards the end of the day, too, because of all the cleaning that needs done, so we typically end it feeling a bit frenzied) and felt somewhat at a loss. Mothers talk about "empty nest syndrome", when they are forced to… Continue reading Exaltation + Indifference: Both Are Okay
Thoughts On… Love, Reluctance + Attachment Styles
There's a naïvety to those skeptical about love - those who have perhaps had one bad experience, one bad heartbreak and are now thoroughly bitter and afraid of it. I don't think I count myself as one of them, I've just become increasingly aware of my own behaviours in romantic relationships and the parts I've… Continue reading Thoughts On… Love, Reluctance + Attachment Styles
“It’s Just A Joke” – The Many Faces Of Emotional Abuse
Any time I've found myself in a truly toxic situation or dynamic, it hasn't been until after the fact that I've been able to acknowledge it. It's difficult to categorise someone's words or actions as abusive when you feel fondness towards them. When you love someone - romantically or otherwise - you feel as if… Continue reading “It’s Just A Joke” – The Many Faces Of Emotional Abuse
A New Perspective on Ego, Emotions & Distress Tolerance
"Not abiding with our energy is a predictable human habit. Acting out and repressing are tactics we use to get away from our emotional pain. For instance, most of us when we're angry scream or act it out. We alternate expressions of rage with feeling ashamed of ourselves and wallowing in guilt. We become so… Continue reading A New Perspective on Ego, Emotions & Distress Tolerance
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