depression, journalling

The Detrimental Impact of Toxic Shame

Trigger warning: self-harm and suicidal ideation * * * Alyse Parker, a YouTuber and life coach I follow, said in one of her recent videos that we are the average of the 5 people we spend the most time with. That was definitely a thought-provoker for me. Because I spend a lot of my time… Continue reading The Detrimental Impact of Toxic Shame


“They Live Chaotic Lives”

I wake up with dread and a sense of defeatism - as is fairly common with me these days. As if my eyes have been gouged out at the lid. Sleep deprivation is cumulative and, like a scar being ripped open repeatedly, it's not something which is ever rectified after one day of abstinence from… Continue reading “They Live Chaotic Lives”

journalling, spirituality

Healing Addiction Via Buddhism + A Happy Birthday

Since my last blog post, I've been on a week-long Buddhist retreat and celebrated my 24th birthday. I'll insert a passage from my journal reflecting on turning 24: "That's a great age," women in their 30's tell me; but in a way, I feel more pressure upon hearing that. I receive it to mean that… Continue reading Healing Addiction Via Buddhism + A Happy Birthday


“The Good Old Days” – Idealisation Of Childhood + Psychological Regression

I've come across countless people who lament and long for the past, for a simpler time without sadness and worries. Maybe it's because I'm 23 and I don't feel "old" yet (although sometimes I do!) but I find it difficult to relate to this. Maybe it's because I've spent time weeding out the realities of… Continue reading “The Good Old Days” – Idealisation Of Childhood + Psychological Regression

Thoughts On..., Uncategorized

Treatment Resistance: The Biggest Heartbreak

At work in the pharmacy yesterday, the pharmacist and I were discussing substance misuse and its tragic detriments on people affected by it. "It's not a life you'd choose," she said. And rightfully so. This is always my stance on the subject. And not just in the context of substance misuse but any lifestyle choice that… Continue reading Treatment Resistance: The Biggest Heartbreak

enmeshment, Uncategorized

Enmeshment + Codependency: A Tangled Web

I've touched on this topic briefly in a couple of blog posts but haven't attempted to go into much detail because enmeshment and codependency are very complex concepts. Explaining it is even more complex - especially if the people you are sharing this with have never gone through it themselves. That's not to undermine the… Continue reading Enmeshment + Codependency: A Tangled Web

Creativity + Productivity Updates

Creativity + Productivity Update #2

In my last post, I briefly talked about the fact that I was in a creative slump. It's not so much that I don't have the ideas or desire to make music - because I do - it's mainly a time-management issue. I'm a full-time student with a lot of course work to do and… Continue reading Creativity + Productivity Update #2