Something I've been struggling with a lot lately is social media. And just my phone in general. I'm finding it veeeeery difficult to limit my usage and I feel like my third eye is so clouded at the moment. Round about the new moon in Cancer a few weeks ago, I did have a very… Continue reading Shadow Work + God-Consciousness
Category: spirituality
The Problem With “Getting Better”…
...is that it implies there is something "wrong" with you in the first place. I've had a shift in perspective recently when it comes to self help, mental illness and shadow work. It's not something that always made sense to me, that truly bringing about positive change starts with radical acceptance of where we are… Continue reading The Problem With “Getting Better”…
Embracing Darkness With The Buddha Of The North
For a few weeks, I've been mulling over which Buddhist figure should be the centrepiece of my shrine. I initially thought of Green Tara - the Buddha of compassion - who has been a familiar figure for me my whole life. Growing up, my Dad had a small Green Tara tapestry hanging in our home,… Continue reading Embracing Darkness With The Buddha Of The North
“To Descend Is Also God’s Will” – Radical Acceptance, Depression + A Poem
It's been roughly a year since my last episode of depression began. That might seem like a sign that it was seasonal-affective induced. However, more than any other time of year, I typically associate late spring with being the time that I typically start to experience depression; so I think that the arrival of winter… Continue reading “To Descend Is Also God’s Will” – Radical Acceptance, Depression + A Poem
Counselling, Validation + Childhood Fantasy
I don't really know what to write about today specifically, so I suppose I'll just write about how I feel and what's on my mind. After last week's outburst post, I knew that my next counselling session would feel different. I told him today that it felt like a month since our last session. He… Continue reading Counselling, Validation + Childhood Fantasy
Bliss, Despair, Terror – Meditation + The Importance Of The Spiritual Community
I mentioned to a colleague at work the other day about going to a Buddhist class one night and she said that she didn't think she'd have it in her to meditate and "sit there with no thoughts". I rushed to say to her what I say to anyone who has similar apprehensions about meditative… Continue reading Bliss, Despair, Terror – Meditation + The Importance Of The Spiritual Community
A New Normal
My last post saw me getting transparent about my addictive tendencies and how meditation and Buddhism had provided the space and support to allow that transparency to blossom. So now I'm not on retreat anymore and I don't have a 7.00am rising bell to gently coax me out of bed, or a beautiful shrine room perfumed… Continue reading A New Normal
Healing Addiction Via Buddhism + A Happy Birthday
Since my last blog post, I've been on a week-long Buddhist retreat and celebrated my 24th birthday. I'll insert a passage from my journal reflecting on turning 24: "That's a great age," women in their 30's tell me; but in a way, I feel more pressure upon hearing that. I receive it to mean that… Continue reading Healing Addiction Via Buddhism + A Happy Birthday
Exaltation + Indifference: Both Are Okay
On Saturday evening, I finished work after a fairly busy day (it's always busier towards the end of the day, too, because of all the cleaning that needs done, so we typically end it feeling a bit frenzied) and felt somewhat at a loss. Mothers talk about "empty nest syndrome", when they are forced to… Continue reading Exaltation + Indifference: Both Are Okay
In Defence Of Letting Things Arise
Growing up alongside the internet has to be a very unique experience - one that is very far removed from the way my parents and others from their generation (born in the 50's and 60's) grew up. Having so much information at your immediate disposal is just the biggest luxury. But it can be a… Continue reading In Defence Of Letting Things Arise
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